BAD TIME FOR A BLOG!
I'm not sure if updating my blog at this exact moment is such a good idea considering where my head is at right now.I found out yesterday that the folks at the local college radio station aren't willing to give me my own radio show,this morning I was told that the local cable tv station isn't at all interested in helping me put together a new latenight show that I wanted to shoot in front of a live audience and just moments ago, I learned that another opportunity I was counting on,isn't going to pan out for me like I thought it would.
This latest news that I received came as a little bit of a shock because it was a huge opportunity for me and it looked like a perfect fit.I'm afraid if I continue blogging here,all this pounding on the keys will just end up being some crazy ass rant that I will regret later......
Screw it,there is nobody else around here right now that wants to hear about any of this so maybe some of you guys do.Entourage is one of the only shows on Tv that I really look forward to watching on Tv anymore but last night I found myself flipping through the channels while it was on because the episodes are all repeats now.
It makes me wonder how the hell I have managed to continue pulling respectable ratings these past few years with so many repeats and old recut episodes being aired.It's kind of amazing actually.Especially when so many of the episodes in my opinion haven't been nearly as good or as funny as they could have been. That being said,the Halloween episode with my Grandpa that is airing this weekend is one of the best episodes I ever made.If you've never seen this one, make sure you check it out.It's definitely one of my favorite episodes and for sure much closer to the kind of show I've wanted to make these past few years.
Hey JR,why so discontent all of a sudden you might be wondering or saying to yourself!
I suppose if you have read the show history on the site here,you might have a better understanding of why but there are lots of reasons why I have never been able to make the kind of show I always hoped I was capable of making.And here I sit,in the middle of some rant trying my hardest not to mention exactly what this latest opportunity was so that I don't burn any bridges for myself.
The question is why,so back to that.I think it's because I have always had to refrain from following my instincts and doing what I really wanted to be doing,I guess because it would be compared too much to you know who.
While glancing through the show history page you may have checked out a piece of video shot back in 1989.If two years ago I was running around with a giant foam penis microphone trying to get reactions from people you would think,wow,that is so Tom Green but it was back in 1989 that we were shooting this footage,not two years ago.
I have always admired Tom Green for somehow getting his cable access show on the air and for building the kind of career for himself that he has.I still can't even get a dam cable access show.Unfortunately for me,I obviously share Tom's sense of humor and it's been difficult trying not to be too much like him over the years. In the process of doing that,I think I also ended up not being too much like myself anymore either.
I could probably go on at length at this point and I don't even know where I am going with any of this all of a sudden so I'm actually going to stop myself .I've been reading too many emails about last weeks episode with Tom Green I guess.I'll get back on track and simply conclude by saying that the lack of direction and understanding for what I have been trying to do with my show,has lead me to lot's of places I didn't want to be.Four years later I find myself at yet another crossroads and it's painfully obvious that its time to head in a new direction because where I'm at isn't getting me anywhere.
So much that happens in the entertainment industry is almost impossible to understand which is why I don't even begin to try and figure out what happens in this industry here in Canada.It's a wonky world that's for sure.
I'm not talking about packing it in yet guys,don't get me wrong.More than ever I need to prove to people what I might be capable of.On days like this, it just gets a little tougher to find the energy to keep trying.That's why I'm getting more and more pumped about this new series I'm developing.I think it will be great to have creative likeminded people around me again like I use to have.Nothing will ever replace the creative energy I had with all my friends back in the day but I look forward to blazing a new trail and seeing where it takes me.Any place is better than here,I know that for sure.
It's time to shake things up so stay tuned......
I had better sign off now before this rant all of a sudden get's ugly.Later guys.
JR
This latest news that I received came as a little bit of a shock because it was a huge opportunity for me and it looked like a perfect fit.I'm afraid if I continue blogging here,all this pounding on the keys will just end up being some crazy ass rant that I will regret later......
Screw it,there is nobody else around here right now that wants to hear about any of this so maybe some of you guys do.Entourage is one of the only shows on Tv that I really look forward to watching on Tv anymore but last night I found myself flipping through the channels while it was on because the episodes are all repeats now.
It makes me wonder how the hell I have managed to continue pulling respectable ratings these past few years with so many repeats and old recut episodes being aired.It's kind of amazing actually.Especially when so many of the episodes in my opinion haven't been nearly as good or as funny as they could have been. That being said,the Halloween episode with my Grandpa that is airing this weekend is one of the best episodes I ever made.If you've never seen this one, make sure you check it out.It's definitely one of my favorite episodes and for sure much closer to the kind of show I've wanted to make these past few years.
Hey JR,why so discontent all of a sudden you might be wondering or saying to yourself!
I suppose if you have read the show history on the site here,you might have a better understanding of why but there are lots of reasons why I have never been able to make the kind of show I always hoped I was capable of making.And here I sit,in the middle of some rant trying my hardest not to mention exactly what this latest opportunity was so that I don't burn any bridges for myself.
The question is why,so back to that.I think it's because I have always had to refrain from following my instincts and doing what I really wanted to be doing,I guess because it would be compared too much to you know who.
While glancing through the show history page you may have checked out a piece of video shot back in 1989.If two years ago I was running around with a giant foam penis microphone trying to get reactions from people you would think,wow,that is so Tom Green but it was back in 1989 that we were shooting this footage,not two years ago.
I have always admired Tom Green for somehow getting his cable access show on the air and for building the kind of career for himself that he has.I still can't even get a dam cable access show.Unfortunately for me,I obviously share Tom's sense of humor and it's been difficult trying not to be too much like him over the years. In the process of doing that,I think I also ended up not being too much like myself anymore either.
I could probably go on at length at this point and I don't even know where I am going with any of this all of a sudden so I'm actually going to stop myself .I've been reading too many emails about last weeks episode with Tom Green I guess.I'll get back on track and simply conclude by saying that the lack of direction and understanding for what I have been trying to do with my show,has lead me to lot's of places I didn't want to be.Four years later I find myself at yet another crossroads and it's painfully obvious that its time to head in a new direction because where I'm at isn't getting me anywhere.
So much that happens in the entertainment industry is almost impossible to understand which is why I don't even begin to try and figure out what happens in this industry here in Canada.It's a wonky world that's for sure.
I'm not talking about packing it in yet guys,don't get me wrong.More than ever I need to prove to people what I might be capable of.On days like this, it just gets a little tougher to find the energy to keep trying.That's why I'm getting more and more pumped about this new series I'm developing.I think it will be great to have creative likeminded people around me again like I use to have.Nothing will ever replace the creative energy I had with all my friends back in the day but I look forward to blazing a new trail and seeing where it takes me.Any place is better than here,I know that for sure.
It's time to shake things up so stay tuned......
I had better sign off now before this rant all of a sudden get's ugly.Later guys.
JR
posted by JR DIGS
at 3:02 PM
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